Round and round we go.

The darling littlest Schloss had an appointment today with an "ear nose and throat" Dr. The original purpose of this appointment was to obtain a referral to a university hospital so her ears could be further tested. It turns out that the children's hospital in Pensacola is now doing the testing also. This will save us a 6 hr. car ride. From what I understand the testing process will be safer here also, since the Dr. is required to be present for the entire 2 hour test done by the audiologist, where at the University that is not the case. The reason it would be safer is b/c Aggie will have to be sedated for the testing to be accurate, there can't be any movement or noise, it would cause too much artifact on the readings. Apparently they can also fit her with hearing aids here if that is what is needed. All in all the appointment was a success.

I must be honest I am struggling a bit, it's really quite silly, well actually it's sinful worry, so silly is not the word. Here is why... upon entering the room the Dr. asked how old Aggie was? I replied she is 6 months, but before I could finish the months part, or perhaps i wasn't speaking loud enough, he piped up with "weeks", ugh. Little reality check. My now 11 lb 5 oz baby is deceivingly small. I of course replied " I know she is very small for her age, her Dr. is checking into it. I mentioned the handful of referrals we've already received." He, trying to be helpful suggest that she doesn't seem to have problems in the areas I mentioned and asks if she's seen an endocrinologist. I politely said I would mention it to her primary care provider. This gets the wheels in my head turing in no good direction, worry. On my drive home I am thinking of all the endocrine problems I know of, at the same time trying not to think of them, the battle of my mind. Lord forgive me! God is her creator, he sustains the universe in the palm of His hand, he is perfectly able to construct, sustain and fulfill the life of this precious little girl.